before teeth braces. :)

today i'm not going to school again.

three day and two holidays plus one sunday.

six day didn't go school, almost one week ady. 

very afraid that my study can't keep it well.

almost exam again. 

hmmm.

10:30pm started.

i'm so scare that time. ><

many people told me that it'll be pain.

actually...

not really. D:

it's no feel to me.

my dad still keep asked me sure or not?

he know i scare pain and have a bit xiao jie. :P haha!

but i'm fine now,

just really can't eat anything. D;

doctor said mine will be fast.

one years half enough to take off.

today 13/4/11.

that's mean next year 13/9/11 i can take off ady! :D

i'm expect it. :) my dream clear teeth. 

at that time, i'll use my smile to show to you all. :)

after braces.

not really changed much. o.O

parent's day finally gone. :)

i have a good time.

watching the video.

i love this much, even tough i don't know why? ><

kate, kuan leong and miki.

you guy must be surprise that KATE dare no wear contact lends to take photo. D:

i'm surprise too when i was back home think it back.

hmmmm, ugly.

but not that bad i thought before. :P

i finally can have a rest.

feel like the big rock on my body finally could be put down.

this two day i work at my sis shop ------ the face shop

really damn tired for standing for whole day and really much people.

:/

i need save money for my phone and camera.

must be stive hard.

the last day took at home first and wearing uniform. :3

love this. :P

still asked am i korean by people.

shy chin. xD

it's many problem between us.

i know that.

but, it's the only way i can do. 

i'd never let you go.

daniel lam.

everyone have a dream, and me too. today i talk alot with mummy and i think i really need force myself to be mature a bit.

ya, it's life. i must accept it and satisfy it.

i'm a girl have a wish, i want a digital camera take all the memories for everydays, every hours, every minute, every seconds when i still alive. i'm a girl have a dream, i want study aboard at far and far away from malaysia and look up how big is the world. i'm a girl have a hope, i want be with the boy i loved much, doing many stupid crazy sweet things and keep the memorable memories forever and continued happiness until i die.

i want a success future.

don't think that i'm just a girl,

i can do what boys can do too.

i need to be more strong and strong and strong.

Today is my lil bro birthday,

happy birthday.

time goes too fast.

i can't believed that he was 10years old.

Actually i knew, my lil bro even tough just 10years old.

but he very sensible.

because our background, because our environment.

so he must to.

be a kid give up toys and play, be a kid no noise no trouble.

today he cried.

it's so hurt to see him like this.

he just want dad and mum can accompany him in one day.

bro, sorry that your sis is useless.

i can't give you anything.

i brought a cake and a present for him.

but it's no use.

cause he isn't want me.

I SWEAR,

next year, i'll give him what he want.

he just a child.

i can't let his innocence lost it when he just in this age.

childhood is important,  i can't let him walk the same way as me in the future.

Today i received a surprise! :D

hak hak hak*

really damn shocked me! 

it's a secret present from my girl ----- JO LIEW! 

a elmo shirt again. xD

really, touched me.

even if our distance are far far far away.

but in your guys heart always have a place for me.  ∩ω∩

thanks you guys. 

i missing you. :(

my boy's house got a new puppy. :3

purple eyes! 

>< omg, i want it badly!

and he told me.

he'll brought one for me in the future. :D

it's sweet and i'm expect it. ♥

it's my life, my world.

even if it's sour or have a bit bitter, but don't throw it out.

longer and longer,

it'll be have a bit sweet inside. ❤  

這會是我唯一一遍的華文博文, 

因為我知道我的他會看不懂. :P 

這也是我不管到了哪裡都會面對同一個問題。 

我很累， 

我來到這里之後的生活給了我很大壓力。 

壓力大到我的大姨媽遲了半個月， 

最算來了也只來了兩天又停了。 

我一直以來控制很好的飲食也一下子全破功了， 

我又開始亂吃東西，不停的吃。 

這樣才感覺可以滿足我心裡的空虛。 

可是媽媽一定又會罵. :( 

當我知道那件事的時候，其實我很想大聲地問你為什麼？ 

我也有我的脾氣，而且我脾氣還很差。 

可是我忍了。 

我忍我忍我忍。 

我可以的，我習慣了。 

不管去到哪裡都遇到一樣的問題。 

我累了，我累得不想再解釋了。 

雖然我嘴巴說沒什麼， 

可是我的眼淚最後還是騙不了自己對 '相信' 的敏感。 

我不會去跟你解釋我自己， 

因為我覺得沒有必要。 

相信我的人 － 不需要。 

不相信我的人 － 永遠不會相信。 

以後的縱有一天， 

你一定會知道我是怎樣的人；你一定會明白你誤會了我。 

我會永遠記得這些心酸， 

等我滿歲，我一定會帶著這裡的一切，

帶著我的夢想，帶著我的眼淚和微笑__ 

離開這裡！ 

我會幸福的。

Life

you would never thought you'll leave a place know as well,

you would never thought you'll lost everything even if you think that not really important,

you would never thought you'll changed your mind you even uphold it much.

you would never thought you'll fall with a person whom you had been known him a long time.

This is life.

you can't know it what'll happen on the next second. 

and, i'm changing and i'm leaving.

you could never know that i'm so afraid that if i can't meet you in one days.

you could never know that i'm so scare that if i can't wait you anymore.

you could never know that i'm so fare that everything can't goes on anymore. D:

mummy told me alot.

i act like i don't care but actually i'm not.

is it really hopeless?

not him problem.

am i.

my background, my life, my part, the people around of me.

all make me became complicated.

but i never wanted it!

i want freedom,

i want happiness,

i want my smile,

i want him,

i want a thing which can prove KATE was alive.

i need a reason can make me alive!

take my hand and bring me away.